has been such a draining process. she has only had the first one and has been completely bed ridden as well as hospitalised over the easter bank holiday due to her blood cell count being abnormally low, thus prone to pick up illness. im finding it so hard to deal with seeing such a strong person, a skeleton of their old self. its selfish, but i cant help but feel that this is not only impacting on her own welfare but it is also playing a major role on mine. its extremely difficult trying to finish up with university for this year, while knowing that your mum needs you even if she wont admit it. im physically exhausted and drained.